Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and don't lean on your own understanding. In all things acknowledge him, and he shall direct your way. ~Proverbs 3:5, 6.
Holidays are always a tough time for single parents. The child(ren) are shuffled from here to there and God forbid it is written in your divorce decree that you have to rotate every other year (which is my case).
Christmas was always my favorite holiday and this year....I barley made it through because my ex decided that it was best for him to move to SC last year after Christmas. This meant this year 4 days before Christmas my daughter was on a plane to SC. One second she was hear and the next she was gone. I was stuck…confused…and sad.
The problem is that in his mind he doesn’t see her and he feels no guilt, no remorse for taking her from her mother on Christmas no matter how much it means to me. This is the ugly side of divorce in its truest and rarest form. It is the thing that hurts the most about being divorced whether mother or father…spending time away from your child(ren) when the law has taken away that right to be there.
Mothers don’t want to see their children suffer and a good mother will always do what is best for them, no matter the pain it will cause them. We will sacrifice heart and soul to make sure that our child(ren) are okay and don’t know the true pain and reach of the reach world. We will protect at every turn. We will suck up the things that we want for the sake of our child(ren).
So this is the first Christmas day since I could remember feeling hurt and pain. Yes, I understand the real meaning of Christmas but that unfortunately this year it doesn’t take away the pain that only a mother can understand. But I can stake some comfort that without the Birth of Jesus there would be no Christmas and that all things consider my daughter is happy spending time with her father.
I know that God is carrying me through this moment and that is what I seek refuge in.
“Weeping may endure for a night but joy does come in the morning” ~Psalm 30:5